Underground Car Guy

A few days ago, I was reminded that I started this blog 7 years ago.  It started out as a place I could relieve the pressure I was feeling in my head.  It was a suggestion from my friend Gary.   I have shared a lot about me, and still have a lot to share.  I have seen a lot of changes in that 7 years.  So here are a few. This blog was started out in one of the tough times in my life.  I was getting divorced, losing  the house and losing the business that I had started with my dad.  Things did not get better for me until October 2014, when I finally got the job with the Airlines and found a good place to live.   Got really sick in 2016, and was out of work for two months.  When I finally went home dragging an oxygen tank around.  It took a lot of hard work, but I was able to get off the oxygen 6 months later.   After 23 years I started dating again, which was hard.  I found a few women that I reall...

I have been writing this blog since 2012.  It has been a place for me to come and write what is some what on my mind.  Sometimes it is viewed a lot and sometimes a little, but that is ok.  This blog is for me then it is for you. And I have used Facebook, to share my blog. So I started another journey a few months ago, and started another blog about my journey to my weight loss.It is about my weight loss and what I am going through to loss that weight,  I posted the latest Update On Nov 4.   So I posted the Update on Facebook, and got a message back that it was being removed from Facebook, because it violated Community Standards.  I did a little bit digging and it was pulled because it was abusive.  How is my weight loss abusive?  I hope that Facebook will read the post and lift the band. 

Picture I took of the LDS Temple in Mesa, Arizona on Dec. 20, 2016.

So my best friends son has set up a go fund me page, to help pay for my medical and regular bills since I am out of work.  Hope to get back to work soon, but have to wait to see the lung doctor to get clearance.  Here is the link for the GoFundMe page.

As I sit here in the rehab center, my thoughts are what happens when I get out.  I have to make a lot of life changes.  A lot I knew I need to change before I got sick, but there are some unanswered as well. The one that is unanswered at this time is oxygen.  Do I have to go home still using oxygen, and will it be for the rest of my life.  I am to young to be tired to an oxygen tank.  I have a lot I still want to do, and if I had the oxygen, I would not be able to do them, like go to Germany.  It does not seem like they are trying to whine me off it. So I don't know. I really worry about work and paying my bills.  On May 9, with the help of my dad and the hospital, I filed for Family Leave.  But my work has still not processed it yet.  Also with work, there was a week, were my phone did not work and I was so out of it, that I did not call in sick, even though my supervisor knows I was in the hospital.  But work marked me as a No Sho...

Three weeks ago I knew I was sick.  I knew I could not breath.  That I could not walk to my car to a computer at work.  I knew that it hurt to walk to the wash er to do laundry and back.  I kept this up for 2 weeks.  I wish that the doctors office would have read the chest x-ray that I had taken the week before earlier so it would have made me go to the Hospital sooner.  But who am I kidding.  Everyone around me were telling me I was not OK.  I took trying to get to work and a friend that would not let up that would get me there. So on the 28 of April I sat in my room trying to get ready for work.  It was just not happening.  I called in sick and by 3 and talking to my friend Delmar I was going to the hospital.  Getting to the hospital took me  hours to get there.  Just had no energy.    I was admitted and that started the crazy ride in the hospital.  The next day I was just sitting in bed trying to ...

  Note:  I started writing this in the summer of 2014 when we did stop selling our products. I have struggled with this for a few weeks now.  Eaglegate is locking the doors and turning off the lights for the last time.  It really is not something that I want to do, but I can not afford to keep it running.  And dad's heart just is not into it anymore. I am grateful for all the things that I learned from this time.  I m grateful for all of those that believed in our products.  To see them go all around the world was exciting. Thanks you to all those that support me, my father and my family at this time.    

A few years ago I was dating a girl that liked to pray before we ended our calls at night.  We would trade off nights saying the prayers.  At one point she asked if I could shorten my prayers.  My prayers were so long because I was praying for all of the people that were important in my life.   Tonight, I was texting a girl I have been talking to for the past month.  She is really busy with work and her kids and is taking online course for college.  I had not talked to over a week so, to get a text from her was great.  I told her that I had been praying for her, and her reply was, you shouldn't.  Why?  I am still waiting for a reply. I have only been really praying regularly just the past few years.  I have always had a hard time praying, and asking for help from  God has not always been easy, and I am not grateful for many things.  I know that sounds bad, but that is just me.  (Really can I be grateful for a ...

It seems like since 2009 my life has been one big failure after another.  From being laid off from my job, to not being able to work with my dad in the business we started and he said was mine, to losing my married, and my house.   I sometimes wonder if I have something genetically in me to fail.  I sometimes wonder if I was the root cause of my learning disability.  Is there a laziness gene that I have, that causes me not to finish things.   But I look back and see that I did finish High School and did get accepted into a private college that I did not go to.  I went on a mission where I was aloud to serve 23 months of it.  I did go to college and earned a degree after failing some classes, even one twice.  And I did have a job at the same company for almost 17 years.   But it is hard to shake off what has happened in the last 6 years.  Yes I have a good job now that pays me more then I was making at General Plumbi...

Mesa, Arizona Temple Dec 17, 2015 Took this picture of the Arizona Temple Christmas Light last night, sometime 5:30 and 6:00.  I have always been taking pictures since I was a kid.  At 16 I took a Photography in high school and had classes the next 2 years.  I would get into class so early, and head to the dark room, that by the time my teacher would see me, he would say, "Oh I did not think you were here today." I was at home sitting here, getting all my stuff ready to go, and decided to not take the tripod last night.  Well, that was not the right choice, but I still got this stunning picture last night.  I was amazed at all of the people there that were there with tripods waiting for the perfect picture.   I have a lot beautiful pictures that would be postcard or book worthy, but I really doubt my skill all the time.  My ex wife would always take my camera and take great shots.  She was really good and could see the beauty of the ...

Today I am really missing my Mom.  There are reason, and it has nothing to do with the date.  But I do miss her council. 

My 1987 I wish I was seen by who I am, and not how I look.  I know I am over weight.  But that does not make me lazy or that I sit there eating a tons of food.  I think most would be surprised at what and how much I eat everyday.   But I judge too.  I look on the dating sites and see in the profile slender or athletic and tone, or they say they love working out, I shy away from them.  If they like fourwheelers, I shy as way.  (OK that is because I have really never rode one.)  Other then that, size does not bother me much.  I am afraid of being someones project! Me Oct 20, 2014 I dated a girl once, that said she felt sad for me.  Because when she was with me, she saw how people really looked at me.  I had no idea that I was being looked and beinf judged by so many.   But maybe my size is really hurt me.  I always knew, that no one really wanted to bother me because of my size.  So I always f...

After having a interview with a church leader last weekend, I am tired of people assuming that they know me.  That I keep on being told, I am make poor decisions in my life, when they have no I did what I have gone through or what I am dealing with now.  Really did not need this in my life right now, when in just a few weeks I come out of training and start my normal schedule for the next few months.

Three weeks of vacation, and going no where, really sucks.  I need to get back on a sleep schedule for when I go back to work on Monday. I have figured that dating at my age sucks, even worse when I was a teenager.   My mom once told me she meet a nurse at the chemo clinic that had a crush on me when I was in Junior High.  Never found out who it was.  Wish I knew who.   Speaking of crushes, I did find a girl that said she had a crush on me a long time ago.  We lived a very long distance away and never really got to meet.  Well she could not wait for me, so she got engaged.  That make me 0 and 2 in the long distance relationship area! I love politics, but I really hate it right now.  Maybe it will be better once the Primaries start.  Always keep on telling myself that I can go back, but then I go, no those people are crazy! Oh and Marc Bercovici sucks as quarterback!!!!

I keep on being told I need to find who I am.   So who am I?  Because I don't know. How am I going to find out who I am? I am told I am a nice or good guy, but why do I not feel that way?

Since the divorce, dating has not been easy.  It was not easy before being married.  I was talking to a girl that I was excited to  date, but she pulled away.  I thought she was a good match.  So this is what I am looking for in a women: Someone to hug and kiss.  I have not had a hug in a long time. Someone that I can touch.  Someone I can hold hands with in public. Someone I can cuddle with. Someone who can except me as me now!  Not afraid to be with an over weight guy. And if it were to led to marriage: Someone that will let me touch them.  Someone who is not afraid  of getting dressed and undress in front of me. The other social things I can be flexible on.

Looking over my blog and I missed the whole month of August.  I am sorry, but them again, I have no idea who really reads this anyway.   Another Birthday day down.  Spent the day before at my dad's. Went to work and had my birthday at my buddy Del Mar house.  His son Dalton made be a card, and Emily cooked my a good Steak dinner.  The big surprise of the day was spending an hour an half with my ex wife, just talking. My dad and Bert are moving to Chino Valley, Arizona, near Prescott.  I will be the only in my family left in the valley after 37 years.  Not really happy about it, but nothing I can do about it either. Work is going good.  10 months down.  Going into Acorn training next week, which will train me on the AA side of reservations. No relationship news and do not know if there will ever be.      Need to catch up on the Tie of the Day. Finish my second book this week.  Decision Points by Presi...

The Tie of the Day July 12th The Crayola Tie I normally wear this tie around the start of a new school year.  But yesterday I wore it in Honor of my friend Daniel Hatch.  Daniel died July 3.  I had know Daniel since he was a kid, hanging around my sister.  I knew his sisters from school and even served in the same mission as his oldest brother.   Daniel was like a little brother, and I guess at one time, he did live with my parents for a time.    Me and Daniel would have some lively debates over the years about politics, both of us have degrees in Political Science, but our most lively debates were about gay marriage.  At times there were some heated things said, but there was never a time that it was not followed up with a sorry of hurt feeling.  I know that he was celebrating the Supreme Court ruling that week, and I don't know if he and Tony ever got married, though I did not support gay marriage, I ways supportive of...

So am I anything like Walter Mitty?  Yes, in some aspect of things.  I still have dreams, some may be unrealistic, but they are my dreams.  I have done a lot of things in my life already.  I do keep a lot of  things to myself.  But this blog has piled some of that away, if anyone is paying attention.  My challenge to you is this.  Look back on your life, and see what you have done in your life.  It does not need to be something everyone knows, but the the big things that mean a lot to you.  Maybe I can look back in 5 years and add one or two more.  Or maybe you can do the same.  Come to think of it, maybe I am more like Forest Gump than Walter Mitty.

Was at my dad's for Father's Day, and we were watching "Walter Mitty" on one of the movie channels.  Walter Mitty is this character who always dreamed of doing great things but never did them.  I always thought of myself of some what a Walter Mitty, but as I look back at my life I can see some pretty amazing things that I have done. This is part two.   Part one was my life until the age of 21.  So now we will see what I have done since then. Got a job working at Mesa Community College Bookstore.  Worked there for about two months.  Next job was with Kieth Riggs Plumbing.  Worked there a year before being laid off.  Went on to work for General Plumbing in the warehouse.  Worked there for 17 years, until I was laid off.  Really loved working there, except for a few in the management.  Was hard to lose that job. Was elected as a Republican Precinct Committeeman for about ten years.  From 1998 to 2000 I was the Third Vice Ch...