The Tie of the Day: June 21st
The Tie of the Day June 21st Not feeling anything special today!
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The Tie of the Day: May 10th
The Tie of the Day May 10th Picked this one out today, because my mom bought this one for my sister's wedding.
Walter Mitty Part 1
Was at my dad's for Father's Day, and we were watching "Walter Mitty" on one of the movie channels. Walter Mitty is this character who always dreamed of doing great things but never did them. I always thought of myself of some what a Walter Mitty, but as I look back at my life I can see some pretty amazing things that I have done. When I was 9 or 10, my parents were working for a production company as extras. My dad can be seen in the Movie Used Cars. But this did turn into a job for the whole family one day. My parents were going to a shoot and took me and my sister along. Got us out of school for half the day. We shot a Visa commerical and were paid I think $50 for just walking back and forth at the airport. At age 11 I started racing go carts. First race out I crashed sideways into the wall going about 55 mph. Was hurt really badly, but did not realize how badly until many years later. Raced for a few months until the insurance company came in and s
Dysfunctional
I was sitting and reflecting on my life the other day. I don't think that I will ever find anyone as my sole mate or get married again. I am having a hard time understanding the relationships of that type of relationship and can I ever really have any type of relationship in my life. Has everything that I have experienced to this point been all fake? Why can I not have what some of my friends have? Why am I so dysfunctional? I am so dysfunctional that it is hard to talk to anyone about. I don't know if I will ever be good enough to be worthy of someone to dating. I have dug myself in a hole so deep that I am not worthy of anyone. I heard it from my ex wife's friends, he is just a leech, even though right now I am working about 50 hours a week. I know what some of my friends will say when reading this, and will be hard on me for writing what I have written. But I have bottled this up for so long, I need to get it out. This was what this blog was for. To help