Underground Car Guy

These have been two very interesting days.  Yesterday, was the end of a 21 year marriage.  Today is the anniversary of me being laid off of a job that I loved.  And that is interesting that I use the word love here. My Job at General Plumbing was not a job that most people wanted.  I had seen people come and go, who just could not hack, working in the warehouse.  We were the lowest paid people in the company and at times did some pretty nasty jobs.  But all in all, I really loved it there.  I like all the people that I worked with except one, and most of the time got along with the plumbers.  I think if the economy would not have gone bad in the housing market I would still be there today.  But it did and on January 30, 2009, I was laid off.  I was not mad.  I saw the company grow and slow almost die.   But I am grateful for my time there. I am not happy to end my marriage.  I would have stuck it out no matter wh...

So I have been looking for a job since this summer.  I have a friend that has been helping me in my job search.  So a job came up the other day, and he suggested that I apply for.  I do not feel that I am qualified for the job, so he offered to punch up my resume and help out on a cover letter.  Then he told me to e-mail the achievements I have had.  And that start me thinking. For me I have my degree from Arizona State University in Political Science, which I earned in 2008.  There was the full time mission that I served for my church in Ireland from 1988 to 1990.  I do have my Eagle from Boy Scouts that I earned in 1987. And there are the trophies that I won while racing and the two from softball. Don't get me wrong I am proud of what I have done, but in the business world now, it does not amount to a lot.  But as I sat there thinking about what I have done I was thinking that what use to be achievements really are not achievements anymore....

While meeting with my old mission friend Gary Wensel, I told him that the I was done crying.  That now that I have lost the house and moved what I wanted to the storage, it is all over.  It is a new start. I would have never guessed that at 44, that I would be starting my life over.  That I would be living with a friends relative, and that I would be looking for a job.  And that I would be divorced (well almost, has not happened yet).  This is not what I envisioned live to be.  But it is.  

So moving everything out on Sunday, we had a lot of help.  One of those was a young man, who's father is a friend and is a Professor at Arizona State.  He started out in the college that I got my degree in Political Science.  So his son is there helping and I say, "Here Connor, you can give this back to your dad."  To my disbelief, he took if from me and did not even look at it.  I told him to take a look at it, and he said he knew what that was. For me, this has been a running joke.  Why don't I just give back my degree, because I am not using it.  It is not worth the piece of ... well what ever it is printed on.  But this is not true.  I do not want to go back and do it again.  But I spent a lot of time and money (Via Discover Card and Visa).  I had a work place that supported me, that when I was in school, they would let me set my own schedule.  During the summer, I would work 40 plus hours.  The felt like they could...

Note:  This is copied from my facebook page. Some of you have been seeing post from me that you did not understand. I have been trying to keep a lot of my personal life off of here, but some things have come to a head the past month or so, that it need to get out there.  Some it started when my mom died in March of 2011. My mom was a lot of stuff for me, and losing her was left a big void in my life. Almost to the date, we lost Kim's dad. That was a hard lost, because we all where there a month before his death, vot ing on wither he should have surgery to repair his heart or go home and die at home. There was a chance the surgery would not work, because of the scar tissue from his cancer. The surgery worked, but he never recovered from it. At the same time this is going on, I am fighting with my father over the business. This has some what cause a riff between us, that I do not know how I can repair. But it has brought up other issues and has made it hard to run the day ...

So here we are in a New Year!  The last year has not been easy and I have no idea what I will be facing this year, but this is what I do know. I will be living in a new place.  I will have to find a place to live.  Do not know were yet, it is to find a place when you have no money. Hopefully I will have a job.   See last blog to understand that , but I have been looking since July.  Hope to find something that I like, and love, and that I can live on. I will be single.  Well I will be divorced within the month.  Not happy about it, but that is OK.  I do not know what that we bring to me in the relationship area, but that is not a main concern right now. It will be a year of change.  Lets hope those changes are a happy one.